there are days and there are days

this is my day today:

3am: went to bed, after 4 hrs of standing and weighing out poisonous materials

8:30-10:00am fracture mechanics. the material was quite interesting and I didn't feel sleepy at all!

10:30am attempted to go to a business class. it was said to be taught by visiting Cambridge b-school chair. when I invited a Korean classmate to go together and finally got seated in the last row of the full classroom with 10 minutes' late, we found that was actually a psychology class. wrong room! we had to make all the way out of the classroom together with the amazed stare of about 40 undergrads!

12-1:30pm you think it was lunch time? no! computational mechanics class! for the first time I experience how hungry people could be. yeah, I did complained to the prof that in the last 30 mins my stomach was crying and I couldn't really concentrate. well, instead of changing the class time, he promised to bring cookie next time. I hope he wasn't pissed off, but I was really so hungry and I guess the unhappiness could even been seen from my face, and probably everybody else' face.

1:45pm Hsin-ying took me to an off-campus company to pick up my grounded samples. we struggled a little bit in between lunch first or pick-up first and finally decided to do it professionally. so I went there with an empty stomach and then.... saw my sample was totally screwed up!!! I couldn't believe my eyes how careless people could be, even worse than me! and they made the same simple mistake, which could only be from totally out of attention, twice!!! the material was so rare, my previous 4 hrs of standing could only make less than 1/10 of the piece! I really felt....

2:40pm heading for Shin-ba-le lunch finally.... I was almost broken down by both hunger and anger. thanks to Hsin-ying to be there, try to cheer me up with the lunch ahead! the sausage rice and coffee (yeah, I was so tired and had to break the abstinence to have my cup of coffee again) were good, I finished them on the way back in the car.

3:10pm being late for Johnson group meeting for 10 minutes. fortunately they were still talking about scientific gossip.

4pm meeting with other collegue till now>_<

再也受不了了，要回家了。

something interesting about street photography

the following is from a letter of a friend, a girl I just knew last week who was paying an interview to Caltech as admitted graduate student. she is Prinstone physics major but likes photography and pocesses original perspective in shooting pictures. her pictures can be seen here:

http://www.princeton.edu/~feiwang/photo_album/studio.htm

I posted it here without her permission. hope she doesn't mind:P
(I really want to go to Huntington garden to see the spring there after seeing her pictures. why not? it is free tomorrow!!)


"First, from the point of view of a photographer, I wish I do not have to ask for a permission. See the problem is, I don't want to disturb the natural state of my object for aesthetic reasons, so it is very necessary to be sneaky :) Oftentimes there is a great moment, but I'd ruin it if I asked for a permission before I raised the camera. Although,
no matter how sneaky I am, the scene always has to be affected by the act of my taking this picture to some extent, asking for a permission is incurring a promise to completely ruin the natural state. If I asked for permissions beforehand, the the snapshots would have become posed portraits, which is much less ideal to me (oh, yeah, people are
so much more interesting when they are not posing). Some photographers even consider it cheating (i.e. violating the ethical code of photojournalism/street photography) to ask your objects to cooperate with you in shots that are supposed to be candid. I guess I can ask for permissions afterwards, but that would just be hypocritical, 'cause I already took the pictures. I can't erase them from my film now even if the people don't grant me permissions! hmm...
digital is another case... but that's not the point, hehe.
(BTW, Somehow it makes me understand the Heisenberg uncertainty principle a lot better :P - the object you are observing has to be changed by the act of your observing/recording. I think this is absolutely stunning how sophisticated theories in science are just some everyday commonsence! but I probably digressed a bit too far :P )

"I did discuss with some professional street photographers about this issue too. my understanding it, the law allows one to take pictures of almost everything that is displayed in public, as long as the pictures are for personal/non-commercial/non-harmful use. now that it is legal, weather it is ethical is another question."

Happy Birthday thinkthink！！！

it's your big day today! did Weiwei buy you gift? 还是去大吃一顿来得实惠些吧:D

白羊座的MM, 脾气要温柔一点啊 ^_-

国产万岁！

终于把我电脑里的毒杀干净了，共有139 个>_< 真令人难以置信，这么小一台电脑呆着也不嫌挤阿！主要是一个叫BBeagle.l的worm，感染了所有的共享文件，包括Symantec的！怪不得诺顿都不行了。都是从不久前不小心打开的一个邮件附件来的吧。还有一个零余病毒，名字怪有意思，叫NotVirus.

早上去its help desk 领了一个Norton的盘，因为我原来下载的那个既不能live update 也不能scan乐。一装，还是一样的问题，打电话去问，那个小姑娘还怪冲：
"you can do manual update from their web."
"it shouldn't be the problem of my disk, nor should it be symantec website, so it can only be the problem of your own computer"
"if it's still not working, then maybe you have to reinstall your system. we don't have other antivirus software."
"if you need help, bring your laptop to our desk. byebye"

feel a little bit pissed off :( and the possibilty of reinstalling the system really made me sick.

好吧，回到我们的国产专家，上网当了一个瑞星最新版。地下软件工作者的customer service 做得真是地道，在Package里给了用户ID和序列号以及详尽的安装和更新指南，还勉励大家共同学习软件编写一起进步推广共享事业，远胜于寡淡无味的白脸小姑娘。

现在好了，毒全查出来了，连Norton 的Liveupdate都又活了，真是不可思议！！！看来国产的力量还是大啊，就想去看病西医只会给你治嗓子治咳嗽治鼻子不同的各类药，中医才能知道你是上火还是受寒，高屋建瓴对症下药阿。

Grand Canyon Revisisted

回来已经快一个礼拜了。想来真是奇妙，上周的这个时候，我还睡在south rim的holiday inn 中，为第二天的大型爬山计划激动到牙疼。这一周都在pay 吧，为了我的大峡谷后遗症——严重发炎的牙龈和扁桃腺，过了几天相当于尼姑的清淡生活，没有巧克力咖啡辣椒和晚睡，连去韩国豆腐店都不能吃招牌泡菜和辣豆腐锅，实在有淡出洪水猛兽的苦恼。

不过眼看病快好了（今天已经到了流鼻涕阶段，可见炎症正在我体内被打败！），我却开始担心或许大峡谷已经开始在我记忆中被淡忘，因为我本来就是没长性的人。我们跟这个世界发生联结的可能性是如此微小，某时某刻而已，而为彼此留下的印记亦只是风尘中的刹那。譬如以前有人说认识一个城市的最好的方法是在市中的某处迷路，我深为赞同。因为孤立无援，便容易放下游客的先见和架子，与每一条街道都结成同盟。再比如余秋雨他老人家（听说自从文化苦旅被雨某一类职业女性联系起来以后，引用他已经过时了:P）写游西湖的时候，只有乘无人时跳下湖里畅游一番，方有跟这个千年名湖贴近的亲切感，我也很可以理解。所以说，要认识一座山，一个峡谷，最好的方法就是去那里hiking吧，只有在那个时刻你们真正联结，你会对他山势的起伏、每一个山头的阴影、一块不肯将息的路边石的突兀，都报以深深的爱和同情，如同看到你自己马上就要光泽不在的皮肤和慢慢长起的白发。而如果幸而又因此得病，那么记忆又可以因这个凭借而得以延长一周、两周，大峡谷的某种因素在你体内跟炎症一起根植，挣扎着不肯离去。这样的际遇，也算难得吧。

我把灌满红土的鞋刷了，袜子和包洗了，水袋拿出来展平晾干，所有的记忆都会被有条不紊地打扫，过不了几天它们都会离我而去了吧。慢慢翻看拍下的照片，还是会在看到那片片红土岩连接出的广阔时屏住了呼吸，看到trail接trail蜿蜒到谷底时心跳加快，看到第一缕阳光照亮某一处命定的山头时目瞪口呆。如果记忆是指身体某种化学状态的暂时还原，那么还好我没有缺失太多。普鲁斯特可以凭借一块玛格丽特小饼在舌尖回旋的滋味写满四页纸的回忆，现在没有人有这样的本事。还好我们有科技发明，数码相机可以把我们的记忆快捷纪录，保存于硬盘某处，在需要时调用，方便许多。听说有人出去玩用素描本来画的，让我钦佩和向往很多，这应该是一种更加亲切和郑重的记忆保存方式吧。

对大峡谷的记忆至今还鲜明的地方，应该是光影的变化。如果不加留意，沿着rim随便走一走，那么惊叹可能只持续五分钟，因为即使在不同的view point，能看到的风光也还是大同小异，一样的红色山头（不知道应该叫山头还是石头，就是从谷底长出来方方一大块或者一块摞一块直到跟峡谷边平齐高度。）绵延伸展而已，你甚至不能鉴别特性，命名其中一个或两个。但是如果坐定某处，从早上日出开始，看到第一丝光线籍着朝霞的反射把灰蒙蒙还在沉睡中的峡谷尖出来的某几个山头顶照红，到红光爬开，感受太阳全升时候红土映着红光的崭新的欢喜之情，然后慢慢地每个山头开始长出影子，有了它们自己的个性。这些影子随着太阳的爬升以一种难以察觉的节奏拉开，交叠，又拉开。正午时分是完全白炽的沙漠景象，红色的砂石都带着灰扑扑的干热。光线是如此强烈，以至于阴影无处藏身。或许文革时候把一颗红心掏出来献给党说的就是这样的情形:P 到傍晚，所有山头的影子都有默契地从向西换到向东。我们曾经戏言如果把相片翻转过来洗，或许日落峡谷和日出峡谷可以没有分别。但是实际上在光亮上还是有细微的差别，早上的时候是新的，亮的，庆贺式的；而傍晚则是肃穆的，庄重的，内省式的。曦和日转，普照万物，没有偏倚，但我想或许她到此处特别灿烂，有相显益彰的得意，因为大峡谷地貌的神奇要有了光线不同的变化才有深浅呼吸的生命力，就如同伦勃朗画里的光线总是打在被皱纹犁过的老脸上，会更深刻和生动几分，比之照于小女孩苹果般光滑的脸。

对hiker来说，那么其神奇性又另有一重，因为还要加上空间角度的变化。从rim上俯视大峡谷在眼前的有限延展，和踏下trail，用脚底度量红土的温度从阴面到阳面、从清晨到正午的变化，绝对是不同的感受。我应该能记得，一走下south kaibab trail，红色山石的世界一下子消除了距离感，好像好莱坞电影里John Williams的配音出场，微微停顿一格，然后轰天作响的情形。往下走会知道整个峡谷不尽是红色，从上往下走经历了白得发赤（或赤得发白）、砖红（正点的颜色）、绿色（小植物们长出来了）和黄色（Colorado 河两岸，真让人想起裹尸布的比喻）的奇妙变化。而这往往是最先从鞋上沾的土的颜色的变化上最先看出来。这些色彩这么地浓郁执著，让我怀疑走出峡谷会不会感觉被粉刷了数层。而选择不同的trail被粉刷的样子也会不同吧。人不能一次走进同一条河流，高中政治老师说这是个错误命题，让我们改成“不能两次走进同一条河流”，然而不谈哲学，这何尝不会是对人类认识不确定性的诗性的悲哀呢。我们在这个被解释的世界无能为力。每一次Hiking应该都会有朝圣式的郑重其事吧。是的，我们内心没有把握，我们祈求联结，我们希望事物的正确形态、清晰命名在眼前一一显现。然而即使恪尽努力地用脚步量出15miles，我们能认识的也只是这个n维空间的一条三维线而已。这算是Hiker的无力。也许应该像Thoreau一样，在瓦尔登湖做两年的测量员，才会明了湖的深浅和喜怒吧。

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上面是前天靠在家里的枕头上写的，现在在实验室空调永不歇止的轰轰声中，我试图用和我一样被病毒侵染而濒于崩溃的laptop敲完下半部分。

你看，旅行是多么神奇的事情，它不仅仅是某时某刻你到了某处（a fixed space with single domain）。彼时彼刻，你走在那条trail上，四周荒热炎炎，然而随你在一起的有过去所有经验和记忆，如同我们在Grand Canyon就有人感慨：我现在看到哪儿壮观的景色都会觉得像是在Lord of the Ring里面。这就是Lord of the Ring的强有力的经验。所有这些过去的鬼魅在你脑海中盘旋，进而层层投射到眼前的风景，石头就不是单纯石头的样子了。这或许就是Italio Calvino 的Invisible Cities里面Labeled city的意思。而此时在过后一周多当我试图将当时的混合记忆析离分装重组，又添上我当下的情绪和感受，必然又是一番扭曲。多年以后，一次大峡谷的经验或许是边缘模糊的多重空间的交叠，在记忆里行走时会不小心掉到另一个时空而不知所措，而它们也会在另一个峡谷、另一座山头的某些个瞬间被释放，融入另一些记忆交错不清吧。

嗯，我还要讲什么？星空。

这段艰难的Hiking从早上７点一直持续到晚上８点多，历时13个小时，让我有幸添了从峡谷里看满天星盏慢慢亮起的经验。大峡谷最不可思议的时候是在清晨和黄昏，those transitional moments.还是我的光线理论:) 而从峡谷里面来体验那太阳落下去的短短几分钟更让人难忘。我们那时候在离终点大概1.5mile左右，上升的山路，四周都是山石，远近大小不同。看不见太阳，但是能看见西边石头上方的红光慢慢暗下去，东边石头的阴影慢慢升起来，蚕食掉平顶的固执的光亮。这仅有的光亮也终于从尖锐耀眼变得温和模糊，最后消失殆尽。这时风紧了一些，石头们的轮廓变成巨大而悲哀，身边好像有看不见的河流在缓缓流淌（是的，Styx，就是这个解释了:P）。这就是大峡谷日落之后、星星升起以前的荒凉。

还好没有等多久，星星渐次亮起。对星象完全没有概念的我，指着西边第一颗亮起的大星开心地叫：启明星！这当然是一个天大的笑话，小时候我奶奶教过我这颗叫什么名字，只是现在忘了。或者只是心里盼望光亮而口不择言。不到十分钟的时间，天幕暗下去，星星密集起来，最后连银河的形状也清晰可见了。也许在精通星象的人眼里，满天的星斗都有其清晰脉络，相互关联，还有后面的动人故事吧。而在我看来，它们只是明暗密集度不同，这真是不会label的可怜。像Beautiful mind 里面John Nash牵着太太的手抚摸星空的温柔，当然非常浪漫。但是用自己的眼看到一颗星就是一颗星的样子，也未尝不是一种幸福。传说被星光交叉照到，是厄运的象征，这是我唯一记得的故事了，罗密欧与朱丽叶，star crossed lovers, 听起来有点不合常理。

我深深记得那个时候星空的样子，感觉它是如此贴近，仿佛要刻入脑子里的明晰。因为是还在峡谷里面吧，所以天空失去了高阔的三维感，而仿佛只是随随便便盖在峡谷口上的一个平面，星星们唾手可及。这就是为什么当年井底的那只小青蛙呆得依然自乐了，因为反正星星都挂在我家门帘上了，我还要看外面的世界干什么呢？了解真相的时刻也就是失去快乐的时刻，只是我们永远都无法满足于蒙昧的诊知。这真是一个悖谬，我们开车８个小时，不惜辛苦下到谷底，企图离真相更贴近，而此时谷底的星空呈现的是另一层扭曲，再换了一个角度看世界而已。它是要告诉我们：快乐也可以就是这样简单的吗？是Hiking到疲劳的末途，抬头看一眼星空，仿佛喝下一口清水一样地心里凉爽高兴？

当我们一步一步走上Rim的时候，天空也一步一步往后退去，他又成了包容万物的一本正经，星星们也回到他们原来的位置，精确地昭示一个一个脉象，一段一段故事。这也是离合中的倏忽，它们下来陪了我们一会儿吧。要珍惜。

还要写什么呢？以后想到再说吧。

tragic monday

unbelievable! today I was told by Caltech its that my laptop was infected with virus and wouldn't be able to connected to Caltech net, either by dial-up or ethernet. I admit that I've been weak since last week and still in fighting with the virus in my body, but how it also affect my laptop???

other bad things: I used too much tissue papers in fracture mechanics class and gained lot of attention; I couldn't find computational mechanics classroom since the new term starts and they moved place; I have to go to health center again....><

something good: my advisor is away so I don't need to do the presentation this noon; Nanjie's gift is on the way...:D

生病了，没力气 >_<

这两天就是睡觉喝水看医生剪头发shopping... 不过倒是把一个学期缺的觉都补上了:)

今天过来实验室，路上发现耳朵和鼻子之间的通道被堵了，好像总是隔了一层，能听到声音，但好像是过去的某个时刻沉淀下来的声音，穿过时空正好被我抓到，能呼吸，但是没有大口大口的畅快。于是我听hotplay的mellowstrone, 正好能找到一点微微的psycho的感觉，hoho.

还要准备一个礼拜一的presentation,只好等有空来写大峡谷了。不过经过几天生病的发酵，写出来感觉肯定有不同了吧。馥菱和馨荧都有在她们的blog上写，大家可以连去看看。

照片看这里：http://caltechc.caltech.edu/~hiking/GrandCanyon04/ 可以到我的目录下看，也欢迎看其他的。

I love your language, Yuenan!

"晚上开车有一种穿越时空的感觉，因为迎面的雪花成放射状飞舞。"

"对Joy有了新的认识－－就是在某种流动的状态下找到痒痒的感觉。"

they are such gifted talking! :D especially the later... you really pictured it!

I came back!

healthy, safe, basicly intact except sour legs, inflammatory gum (again!) and tonsils... I'll write something interesting about grand canyon when I get time.

hotplay, I got the cds you sent! now listening to mellowstron, they are awesome! I should defitely make copies of my radiohead s for you. you'll love them.

教你一招

百货店香水试闻的纸条，碰到厚而好看的，抓上一把，各自碰上自己喜欢的香水，免费！标上日期再盖个戳，就是你独家的书签拉。

记得有一次bath&body work得不错，有一个叫joy的香水，淡淡暖红色浅浅勾勒一男一女列着大嘴在笑，几行煽情字，具体记不得了，最后一句是，"joy... is sands in your toes..." （当然此处sands 当指海滩上细沙的沙，不是鞋里硌入了穷砂恶石的砂。）

人生之不如意事八九

thinkthink 不必太在意，我们都是或多或少被安排好的木偶戏，在社会人生大舞台上。只不过有时候一些人演一半发现台词不对了，那也没什么:P

我的梦想：

也有埃及啊，圆月之夜去看金字塔。自从听了"dark side of the moon" 之后就一直有这个愿望。
秋天去阿拉斯加钓鱼
早点再回家一次，让崇明岛早上的冷风把肺呛疼，或者再有机会，狠狠地吸一口北京的沙尘暴。
还有一个卑微不足道的。。。今天下午赶紧把计算力学作业写完，明天去爬大峡谷，嘿嘿。

List of musician's movies - for storm jailbirds

as seen or recommended by fuling... everyone is welcome to add to this list:

Legend of 1900 ! (ha, my favorite, watched the 6th time last weekend)

Amadeus (biographic movie of Mozart Wolfgang Amadeus, Fuling and I had different perspectives about this movie, she saw miserableness of a talent's life, I saw more the triumph of genius towards mediocrities in the end with time lapsing )

Shine (story of a boy genius pianist and "Rach 3")

The music lovers ( art and life is a paradox... I knew this movie 'cause I read the communications between Tchaikovsky and Madame Meck, you can see it, I'm always more interested in affairs associated with art than art itself :D )

The Red violin (what was the story? I saw China's culture revolution was involved...)

Hilary and Jackie (we've talked enough about it)

The pianist ( more war and normal people's survival than music)


A song to remember ( an old movie about Chopin, I remembered this because it was once widely showed and aded in Tsinghua, with deputy Priminister Li Lan Qing coming to Tsinghua to watch it together with Tsinghua students. I even remember in the press release afterwards, there was a cliche sentence " Priminister Li was touched to tears", hoho. though it's a good movie. )

In checking for the correct name for this movie, I found another Chopin movie, which was somehow more related with the romance between George Sang, her daughter and the musician. heihei, must be more interesting. La Note Bleue should take a look during the spring break.

FROM NUO

The Piano

should be on the list too. Though it's more about a woman discovering her sensuality than about piano, hehe.

Two more related Chinese movies

和你在一起，2002. Directed by 陈凯歌 (available in blockbuster now in the title 'Together')
A story about a talented boy, struggling between the lure of fame and the seek of true music spirit. Excellent violin performance.

春天狂想曲，1999. Leading actor: 邵兵 (not available in US :P)
have yet to see it...

here

sorry, I spelt the name wrong, should be Hilary and Jackie.

亦舒也有一本小说叫“她比烟花寂寞”，巧得很，也是讲女艺人的故事，或许灿烂光辉背后的落寞分外叫人叹息吧。这个电影出得晚，分明是盗版工作者们借用了亦舒。

太好了，等听新CD:D 你们已经在放假了吗？去哪里玩？我们这个周末要去大峡谷，打算一天从谷底来回，所以大家都加油锻炼。Hsin-Ying 昨天跑了20圈^o^, 连馥菱也破天荒地半夜去gym呆了40分钟，也不知道干吗。看我把msn上的nickname都改了，make it to colorado river~~

everybody needs some time to run alone...

一句被英语糟糕的我听错的歌词。那时候听gun&rose 的 "november rain". 好长的歌，齐全了所有的弦乐、雨声、口哨、鼓点和最后很棒的吉他，配在一起也颇好听，只是跟他们反常地柔情和体贴（恐怕只有"don't cry" 能比了）。不过我喜欢这首歌是因为正好在跑步的时候听到，并把"everybody needs some time all alone" 听成了"everybody needs some time to run alone", 觉得非常心有戚戚，就把它作为跑步时候励志型的首选歌了。

不过今天想起来是因为我在上完一个小时形体操课以后，在没有带耳机的情况下又去操场跑了5000米，利害吧^_^ 我想我是真得喜欢上跑步了，以前去操场跑步的最大动力就是有了一卷新的摇滚CD。塞上耳机慢慢跑一跑，再走两圈，把一卷听完45分钟左右吧，绝佳搭配。有时候听到摇滚中不识时务的温柔歌，脚步也会渐渐放慢，有一次还被教导" you'd better use the outer lanes for taking a walk" >_<

今天发现耳边没有音乐，只有自己的喘气和微微掠过的风声的感觉也是不错的。everybody needs some time to run alone, 是说连虚拟的伙伴也不需要吧。in this chaotic world, how many moments do you have of feeling yourself, being only with yourself? 跑步是这样的时刻，在春夏之交的黄昏，太阳落下去而略略开始空旷起来的操场。有时候天边有瑰奇的云彩，通常只持续短短几分钟，让你感叹我们生存的瞬间性，每一个下一秒世界都变了一个样子，但是永远不会是你想要的，纯洁陌生的那一个。有时候只是蒙蒙的灰，San Gabriel Mountain 只变了一个大的剪影，很不真切，只有在山顶气象站的两盏小灯亮起来的时候，才让你确信他的存在，心里小小的安稳下来：是的，我曾经到过那里，没有错。从白天到黑夜，那短短交接的时分，总是给人恍惚的不确定感。时间上的边缘性是否会带来空间上的边缘性呢？有时候我跑着跑着会觉得短暂性失忆，仿佛要进入一个另有期许的新的世界。

幸亏这时候跑道上的灯总是适时地亮起来，照出一个坚定的椭圆形。人渐渐地走空了，人声安静下来而被照得明亮的跑道有一种“群芳过后西湖好”的落寞和亲切。而关于试验、计算力学作业、晚餐要吃什么以及其他各类杂七杂八的琐事也纷纷完成放假回到我脑子里来，脚步放慢，该做放松和回家了吧。

大声鼓掌馥菱这期的blog - 一定要看

大提琴家 Jacqueline duPre 和她的犹太音乐家先生。hotplay, 上次我要找给你看未果的就是这部电影， Hilary and Jackie, 她和她姐姐的故事。fuling always gets the accurate feeling and finds the accurate way to say it. this piece is an excellent example. and I do like the warmth in her lines, which certainly supports me in the endless debugging night....

I like Yo-yo Ma also, who displayed increditable calmness in his first Bach suites record in 1983 when he was only 20+, yet keeps/or develops ebulliency in his mid-age journal of exploring versatile musical elements. music is an endless land to him. Jacqueline found herself in music, Yoyo Ma found the world...

here comes the question: which one do you appreciate more, talent with natural cut, or talent with deliberate management?

还有要推荐的是馨莹近期的blog, 关于台湾民主的思考。 要认真思考，交流，不要吵架。等我写完程序去大峡谷前要是有空也来谢谢我的想法吧。

hotplay, thinkthink, are you already in springbreak now? how is it?

btw, 刚有人对我说：觉得你最好的职业就是开间可以安静聊天的酒吧咖啡馆了。。。5555， 对我在science上的潜力这么不认同>_<

Jade Mocha

就算我们要开的书吧的招牌饮品，好不好？:D

我只是厌烦了上个礼拜只有chocolate和candy的广告，想换一款咖啡看看能有什么自动广告条，哈哈。Jade...原是想说“翠尊摩卡”，姜白石咏梅花的词里说，“翠尊易泣，红萼无言耿相忆”，是最感人的句子了。（后来在《重庆森林》里，梁朝伟就把它演化成“毛巾易泣，肥皂无言恒瘦身”了，嗬嗬，果然古人的感情要也要来得美丽一些）只是实在不知道“翠尊”要怎么翻，就代用玉吧。不装清酒，装浓洌而一样温润的摩卡，应该也是别有风味吧。

嗯，等我们开了书吧，这一款摩卡要用大大的颜色若有若无像要融化的绿杯子serve, 旁边放一朵小小梅花。杯子的颜色要润，但是内壁是磨砂的毛毛的，喝完的咖啡还不肯全部流光，泪花在杯壁上慢慢地凝起来。

非人亦人

为了解释女“非人”们在爱情上的人间要求不得满足的悖谬，我不得不来掌自己的嘴了:)

所谓“非人亦人”，是说天龙八部里面非人非神的那些个生灵，在某种程度上或多或少地都保有着人类的弱点，甚至劣根性。迦楼罗日食一大龙五百小龙，何等风光神气；但到命终时，体内毒素爆发，上下翻飞七次到金刚轮山顶而死，死状惨烈之极，全身烧毁，只留一青色琉璃心。而阿修罗部虽然女子美貌，但是善妒好战，若在人间，必掀起情天恨海风波，或至倾城覆国吧。甚至天神也有“天人五衰”的悲哀。“衣裳垢膩、头顶花萎、身体臭秽、腋下汗出、玉女离散”，这和水灵灵的女子嫁人后成了黄脸婆有什么两样？

便是这些根正苗红的天龙部，亦有让我们凡人扼腕叹息的时刻，更何况那些下到凡间来浸濡业久的“非人”女子呢？早已在文字里参透了男欢女爱后薄凉之境的张爱玲，见到刘郎，亦是“只因为见到你，愿意一低低到尘埃里”，岂不是非人的一点点人间向往？然而她自然不能如愿的，原以为可以得到凡间的幸福，“岁月静好，现世安稳”，岂知彼非良人，那男人或许一边能窥到她“非人”的好处，（我们看照片，知道张长得不是很美，或许世俗地来看不如小周吧:P “淹然百媚”，多是从锦口秀心的灵来的吧），一边算作他类似鼻烟壶中国字画系列收藏中比较另类的一件吧。如胡所说，“我与爱玲，只是一场欢爱”。男欢女爱，你情我愿，就是要当得起才是。那一刻的张爱玲，想来是愿意被当作女人来爱，普普通通但是又独一无二的人间女子。后来决绝的那句话说得也心虚。但这正是“非人”类的那一处软肋，怪不得她。似乎也只能如此结局了。你能设想到一个更好的男子与她？一桩圆满到柴米盐饭的恩爱到终与她？“我将只是萎谢了”，她作为女人的开放，也似乎只能在那短短低下去的瞬间那。

想到另一桩可以来比的故事，卓文君。。。夜奔“凤求凰”而去时是“婚嫁不须啼，愿得一心人，白首不相离”，至见弃，“闻君有两意，顾来相决绝”。就是我先把你休了。还叮嘱对方，“努力加餐勿念妾，锦水汤汤，与君长决！”这是何等干脆爽朗的气概，是我所喜欢的人间女子的大性情和大智慧。说得好听，但是譬如到自己时，怕都会有问出“我与**，你要选谁”的糊涂时刻来，只怪上海到宁波乡下的距离还是太近，未能保全尊严，要是在美国就好了，尽可写长信去痛骂，或者不理不睬保持“非人”姿态，呵呵。

突然想到一件，你说为什么只“民国女子”两个名词的叠加就会生出许多摇曳的姿态来呢？好像名词往往会比形容词有更淋漓尽致的表达作用。万一到后世有人要为你我作传，就只好用“共和国女子”，多煞风景阿。

踏落花扑流萤梦同无梦

哈哈，来对“写程式磨试件人与非人”

大家来对对子玩吧，我先来对这个俗的，显得弃妇一般>_<
刚馨荧帮了我一下午lithography，有gang of science women 还真是好啊。

太高兴了男姐发标一下子写了这么多。Science women的裙子嘛，真是抱歉，我实在想不出来在50米风洞口穿的，看你写得一下子就想到梦露的那张经典了:D

注：要看以前的文章，点左下方的archive. 问你家巍巍好:)

火车开往回声谷

刚才花了一点时间来把上次去Echo Mountain hiking 的照片整理了出来。大家来看吧:) 还有前两次的照片，羡慕我们南加的阳光灿烂吧！

Echo Mountain 还是一个小有历史意义的所在，有人曾经在山谷间建了十个车站（Crazy!)，这里是第一站。现在还能看见些遗迹，铁锈的车轮，废弃的轨道，和当年火车站的照片，等等。山谷里的车站，想来还真的有些诡异。比如我坐的那段铁轨，前面明明就没有路了，是断崖，能开去哪里呢？难道是哈利伯特里的魔法学校？？嗯，或者，这山叫做Echo Mountain, 难道其中有灵异？这么一想，真叫人在火烈的阳光下打了个冷颤。。。据说再往下hiking个7，8 miles能把十个车站走完，下次一定要早点起试试看。

人与非人

hotplay 说到翟永明与张爱玲的差别，大抵是“人与非人”的差别吧。

法华经里说，“天龙八部、人与非人，皆遥见彼龙女成佛”，——不错，从《天龙八部》的序言里看来的:) 翟永明再怎样的敏感尖锐，所能触及的痛苦，也是人间的，所以她不能超出非人的Frida的画的表达。而张爱玲呢，她笔下的苍凉洞悉还真不是凡间女子几十载的阅历能积累到的。干达婆，阿修罗，迦楼罗。。。该把她归到哪一部？？

不过，看看那些游走于非人边缘的女子，哪个不是最后换我们一声叹息？伍尔夫西蒙娜杜拉斯。。。所以呢，幸福还是属于凡间女子的，白饭馒头加清水马蹄羹的幸福:P 对了，有一个我觉得她活得算是最自在的了，乔治·桑啊，呵呵，既当肖邦的情人又当妈，还有德洛克拉瓦那个画里面引导法兰西的丰满女神，画的八成也是她，但是她的小说其实没那么好，才气还是算不到非人里。

所以hotplay同学，就算你长得漂亮，我也断不能同意你当阿修罗，还是给我低顺了眉眼乖乖当人吧，嘿嘿。

btw, 张爱玲

刚看到说她有遗作被发现，台湾在出，书名叫《同学少年都不贱》，语出杜甫的诗“同学少年多不贱，五陵裘马各轻肥”。听来颇叫人生疑：张爱玲哪会引到杜甫来做小说名呢？十八春金锁记沉香炉屑哪个是引来的呢？她要引也就引个西厢记什么的吧，哈哈。再说这名字听起来颇酸，倒不似她的沉稳和遥遥的客观，难道到老来吃了苦心性反变了？ 嗯，更像是亦舒什么仿写的。

不过刚才跟老同学聊天，听说新闻（或许旧闻），咱们班的帅哥QQ同学刚娶了太太买了新房，据说太太和房子都漂亮呢。真的是“同学少年多不贱”啦，呵呵。

sigh, 同学少年多不贱，我当加紧磨试件。。。

磨试件

从下午磨到现在。。。8个步骤*每个30分钟=。。。。你听过“铁杵磨成针”吗？讲的是李白他老人家小时候看一个做实验的小姑娘磨试件的故事^_^

中间发生一个小小事故：磨间休息的时候想吃一个冰箱里年代久远保质期无法考究的酸奶，结果揭开盖子，酸奶爆炸了>_< 还好找啊找，又在抽屉的角落里找到一个同样年代久远但还好不会爆炸的麦片，喝了:D

等你回去的时候叫我吧，裙子是好的，春天来了~~

关于frida kahlo

I see more desperate strength than optimism:( 也有可能是她为自己酗酒找一个比较浪漫的借口。。。就像elliot的咖啡勺，与life啊，pain啊这样的词相连听起来就比较不同凡响一些。

有没有念过翟永明的诗？是个四川的女诗人，比舒婷稍晚，没那么有名，但她的诗是差不多大陆最有现代性的了。我那时候有一本她的薄薄诗集，毕业时把好多书送人这本想想留下来了，还带来这里。她在95年这样写过frida kahlo:

蜂鸟，刺藤的拥抱
掠过她狂热的
流血的脖子 创造美的脸庞

蝴蝶一扑 飞起来
从卡洛冰凉的铁床上
闪光、金黄
吱吱响的四只车轮
目睹了这个女人的战场

一根根向上生长的毛发
和她的浓眉是
内心茂盛繁荣的气象
穿透石膏护身塔
穿透塌下来的一片天

“我已掌握了恐惧的形状”
卡洛附身向前，低声细语
我听见剪刀轧轧之响
以及石膏、拐杖
它们痛断肝肠

。。。

是一首长诗（“剪刀手的对话”）里的一节，我敲下这么多，已经不容易了:( 看看像不像对着她的画二次素描下来的？后来的电影也是一样的意图吧，可能说来自女人身心的创痛，没有人能比她自己的画说得更好了。

今天差点就喝到咖啡了:(

你看，为了克制喝咖啡的欲望，我不得不在早上你开始磨咖啡豆的时候落荒而逃出家门。然后在接近直射的阳光里昏昏欲睡，正好看到BI yard有免费咖啡，食指大动，就说喝一小杯吧，反正免费。

喜滋滋到了一小杯，出来碰到我们健谈的朋友Shwatank，他在大声跟我讲话开始说起最近的research etc.ect. 为了礼貌起见，我只好伸手去把挂着的耳机摘下来，结果。。。咖啡全撒身上了&_& ，哭啊。。。还好是咖啡，不是菜汤，也还闻得惯。白Tshirt上一大块咖啡渍，配咸菜色的裤子，看起来还挺像个作实验的样子吧？看来真是不该动喝咖啡的念头，几乎是现时现报:(((

只是一会儿就要开始上无聊的计算力学课了，我还是去买一杯来喝吧，免得睡着出丑。路上谁跟我搭讪都不理了，哼！

“我打了个哈欠，也就没能压抑住我的欲望。。。”真是用于咖啡比用于爱情还要贴切许多啊。

BTW, this term there is a new course offered " WRITING POETRY" . hehe, you should try it:)

Women's day, Women's biz

I just realized that today it is Inte'l women's day during watching tonight's CharlieRose interview to Jack Welch and Suzy Wetlaufer... ha, if you are not familiar with their story, take a look at here.

though the interview didn't go as I had expected - it was more about "HIM", not about "THEM", - it was still among the best interviews I've seen in this show. though looking sharp, intelligent and aggressive, 80% of the time Ms. Wetlaufer ( would be Mrs. Welch after Apr. 24 this year!!!) was just disappearing from the screen when Jack and Charlie were involved in ardent discussion on Camcast-Disney acquisition case, tax-cut, outsource and job creation, etc. Yeah, she was there, and was asked intendedly by either of the two men, once or twice, what her opinion was on this or that, and did give short comments which were not too off professional level (considering her previous position as excutive chief editor of HBR), but who cares?

the turn for her was, conceivably, talking about their affair, which she apparently handled with profession and subtlety. as a great respectful interviewer, Charlie gave her the last five minutes of the 1 hr show. the questions were pretty sharp ( I really like this typical Charlie-rose-style), " what do you think you should apologize for? " , "shouldn't have pulled down the article", well, pretty professional retrospection, and then, "didn't meet Jack sooner. " this sounds really corny and Madison-county-bridge:P but anyway, they are in LOVE. who can reproach two people in love?

yeah, she did talk about "darkness", "disconnection", "supportless" when the story was going on, but when you connect it with the fact that it was she herself first released their "romance" to her media friends either unwittingly or deliberately couple of times till it was totally exposed, when poor Manager Welch was still declaring it as "friendship", you'll have to reassure the cliche " men conquer the world, women conquer it via conquering men". they are on the ship now:D

btw, I almost forget to mention.... Suzy did get involved in the conversation more or less when the topic went to Martha Steward case. here she was able to chop in, I guess, from both a woman and a professional's point of view. actually I think she is in a perfect position to make comments on Martha Steward. she and Martha, are exactly the controversary cases of how professional women make their ways. those who try to stand on their own should be cautious on each single step, you may be overthrown anytime with a minor mistake. and those, who is smart enough to be able to stand on great guy's shoulder (even old great guy) will make the world... at least get a chair in Charlie Rose show:P

ok, dear girls, this is my little gift to your holiday. happy women's day~~

努力加餐饭

馥菱小姐正在加油看日剧，《午餐女王》，听起来很诱人吧？也真得很好看，有长得像新鲜奶油果的女主角和蛋包饭、炸牛排三明治等各式料理。只听馥菱边看边对着寡淡的鸡汤叹气：还是油炸的看起来真好吃阿！是啊，两个食量正常的女生，一天没吃到什么constructive的好东西，大半夜再来看这么诱人的食物展览，其残忍程度，真是不亚于《发条橙》里面让暴力狂听贝多芬阿。

日本人干什么都有一种简单而郑重其事的态度。日剧就是很好的反映，每篇日剧最后都一定是一个简单的人生道理揭示，通常通过片中的一位长辈来向主人公美女或俊男在某一个特定时刻传达，比如这里是爸爸厨师半夜在小厨房煮Demiglace sauce（一种浇在蛋包饭上的热乎乎的酱汁）...不过我喜欢这片里的人生道理，给每一份食物都独一无二的立场，给午餐赋予希望的含义。里面有一节，被丈夫忽略的怨妇“边流泪边努力吃饭”，在快餐店被注意和同情，让我想起了中国一句古诗。

是的，就是《古诗十九首》第一首的"行行重行行","行行重行行,与君生别离...(以后记不得了)",只记得通篇都是哀情比兴,言深情长,直到最后突然来了一句打油诗格式"弃置勿复道,努力加餐饭"。刚开始念到还觉得奇怪，“加餐饭”也进了文绉绉的古诗里。后来长大了才慢慢懂了里面深远绵长的力量,那种含着眼泪扒下饭的坚忍。中国古代的妇女,一点点无言的反抗和对未来不放弃的期望,就在一口一口扒下的饭里了吧。

不过前不久在网上流行的一个笑话，各地妻子在先生有了外遇之后的反应。其中的山西妻子是这样的：大哭一场，回家烙了十张大饼，杆两斤面条，吃下后心情舒爽大半，第二天亦复如此。这样半年后先生提出离婚，理由不是外遇，而是。。。太太已经胖成了猪样!

这真是一个残忍的故事。这里的山西太太何尝不是恪守了古代妇女“努力加餐饭"的优良传统呢?简直是身体力行,结果下场如此悲惨。看来从现代意义的妇女积极人生，“行行重行行”应该这样收场：“弃置勿复道，快上减肥班”！

附：日剧还没收场，正到高潮。馥菱看的一把鼻涕一把泪，但是我要先睡了，不管嫁给老二老三我都一样开心啦！

Happy Birthday to Y-Q!!

just know it is Y-q's birthday today according to Lunar calendar. though it's almost passed, it's never too late to say happy birthday , as life goes on ... :)

an interesting observation is that his birthday is Feb.16th in lunar calendar, just one day after the birthday of my best high school friend. the girl born on Feb. 15th told me that the date was called "花朝", meaning the gathering of flowers. Probably the flowers all wake up on that day to celebrate the beginning of coming spring?

so y-q was born the next day of "花朝", which means that all the flowers are well awaken and flourishing to welcome his birth:D what a lucky date of emergence!! so happy birthday, Pisces!

P.S. : I was complained about that the blog was all about girls... now no guy dares to chop in since it is such a girlish place :P so I'd like to bring up this guy topic - to say happy birthday to a guy friend :D

全面下火中

谢谢姐妹们的关心啦。hotplay, I'll try your rock candy recipe~ (but not the black bean one, which doesn't seem tasty:( ) now we are real ROCK CANDY CLUB~~

痛定思痛，我决定全面调整现阶段饮食习惯，咖啡不喝，铁观音和普洱茶改成绿茶和苦丁，红豆汤改称绿豆汤，白砂糖改冰糖，更重要的是，把所有的黑巧克力交给馥菱保存起来！//真是幸运，昨天上午刚把她的一袋M&M peanut豆消灭，暂时无憾了。

所以从早上到现在只吃了两个小蛋糕，若干小碗绿豆汤，一个柚子，一肚子茶水而已:( 现在饿得狂抓中&_&

记得小时候有一卷《葫芦兄弟》的磁带，里面七八个兄弟分属火、水、冰、大力、快速若干不同性质。我可能就属于火葫芦性吧:( 那里面最逗的是一个妖精洞里的蛤蟆小妖的声音，附和主人时说“好，好，哇，哇”，庆祝火葫芦小弟喝下阴酒快被消灭时的台词是“这小子。。。火气也从屁股眼里漏光了 （是个押韵的排比句，可惜我太庸俗，只记者最后这句好玩的了)。。。”当时我和我弟比赛，看谁能把蛤蟆的声音学得最像，他居然能比我更会阴阳怪气。这会儿由“下火”突然想起来。这小子如今是个努力工作的纯良青年，怕是全忘光了吧。

刚才一时起怀旧之思，去google了一下葫芦兄弟，结果发现这篇有趣的
http://www.southcn.com/cartoon/make/pl/txt/200311170707.htm

真是神奇，作家们怎么就能想到我小时候压根没感觉的深远意义呢。

playing housewife 中。。。

因为馥菱有些小小发烧，我的牙床这些天也肿了，刚才一口气煮了两个汤，银耳莲子羹和绿豆苡仁汤，苡仁还是从生的开始发出来的，用我爸的方法，他知道了一定得意死了。现在等待中。。。慢慢等一锅汤开的感觉，真是安静温暖。

今天的Hiking是Echo Mountain, almost all-girl trip. 现在写作业，等我有空了来放照片和写吧:)

hotplay...乌龟没拍到，不过他们既然常驻，以后可以经常去拜访倒是！电影看了吗？我昨晚看了《盲井》，郁闷之至，看来没嫁给山西人真是运气得很。

Promote 一下Primal's blog

http://www.primaldual.blogspot.com

he is writing about his HongKong conference journal and future Shanghai trip. the beginning was a littlbe bit like that in "lost in translations", ha, would there be romance happening in crowded yet lorn city? anyway, more girls reading his blog will certainly give him motivation of writing something with more fun:D

九只乌龟晒太阳

刚才去复印paper,从SFL走到Milligan路过小池塘（hotplay, 就是你曾经在那儿巴着兰花媚笑拍照过的池塘）的时候，看到一道奇观：大小九只乌龟蹲成一排伸着脖子在晒太阳哪~

老乌龟很大，小的呢，还不及小朋友的手掌大，没像传说中的四脚朝天晒肚皮，只是都把脖子努力朝一个方向伸长，可能既能够照顾到部分肚皮又比较安全吧，这两天下与肯定也把他们潮坏了。脖子深得很长，绷得紧紧地，跟乌龟本身特有的太阳下的安详有点不协调，仿佛有所期待的样子。更好笑的是有一只小小乌龟把前爪搭在一个大乌龟的背上，唱双簧一样，可以把肚皮更大面积曝光吧，哈哈。

在我慢慢走过去的时候，两只老的扑通翻下水，其他的连眼皮也没抬一下，继续他们的准静态思考和期待。看来真是越老越胆小。

程序编译通过，庆祝一下

完成了计算力学作业一的前两题，惭愧啊，别人都已经开始做二了。anyway, 犯了一个我决不好意思再向人提起的弱智错误，现在总算解决了。

大家有没有注意到blogger的智能广告条？根据你blog内容关键字的不同会来换你感兴趣的，比如经常贴中文的时候我会得到中文的厨具和某深圳电子公司的广告，有一次贴了purse的文章，出现了几天Gucci地联结。今天很高兴发现，出于某种原因， 出现了短暂的philosophy falling in love shimmer 的广告，还有一个德文（？）的dating 网站的连接，哈哈，难道是我的文章中出现了baby?

google的搜索真是利害阿，baby baby baby baby....

午间直播

always rushing, alway late...所以早上起床穿错了馥菱跟我类似的鞋，别人的鞋跟自己的鞋的差别在于，虽然看起来几乎一样，牌子，头的形状，跟的高度，包括颜色，刚开始穿上的时候差不多，走久了就会发现别人的越走越夹脚，自己的可以长盛不衰地走下去吧。但愿她没有起来找不到鞋恼羞成怒，赫赫。

所以上午跟同事出去外面的工厂看样品，中午就有理由叫他送我回家了，不小心说漏嘴，"also I can take a nap at home", 让这位勤奋工作的老先生露出了不可置信的表情。

难得中午回家，先果然美美得躺下睡了大半个小时，梦见了我妈我奶奶和无数的吃食，直到没办法只好起来煮我的方便面，一边打开电视享受午间直播。

一个粉红衣服的少妇在教一个蓝毛衣老先生投篮，教了半天老头得出结论：what a fine young woman! 永远是一幅上帝面孔的某judge judy 正在凝神倾听一个看起来有些疯傻的黑妹妹讲述她和她男友的爱恨情仇；一个身形丰满假睫毛一翘一翘的中年墨西哥妇女正满含热泪追忆某成人大学怎样给了她第二次生命，让她得到了现在销售经理的职位。。。最后屏幕上出现白脸小帅哥，锁定细看：节目持续10分钟，那个叫Sharon的中年美妇主持借机与之嘴对嘴亲3次，拿滴着水的眼睛上下瞟帅哥持续累计8分半钟，在其弹唱一首不断出现“baby”的怂歌过程中尖叫呻吟2次，台下一帮尺寸大于4X的中年妇女们也尖叫不已。

想想到了40岁还要扮演无脑主持靠跟20岁小白脸调情来讨生活还真是一种悲哀。但是换个乐观角度来看人生，到了40岁还有机会跟20虽小白脸公开调情，还有人pay你，有何乐而不为呢？

吃饱喝足，听着齐秦踏着午后软绵绵的阳光又去上学了。起风了，有些冷。

爱心午餐

刚吃完馥菱准备的午餐盒。白米饭，土豆咖喱鸡块配豌豆和玉米粒，漂亮地像春天一样地楚楚动人啊，赫赫。

是今天早上又晚起，时间只够匆匆忙忙洗脸刷牙跑出去，回答“早安”的只是一个哭丧着脸的“又要迟到了”。“稍等，你的午餐和咖啡！”浓浓的咖啡，加很多奶，可以在上课喝，自己烤的蛋糕，午餐盒加一根香蕉，真让人感动得要泛酸了。。。

Science women's alternative life/lives

see the title I just changed for you guys? ha, sacrified my personal space...

first, we should congratulate Yuenan of getting Yale's offer and rejoining this science women club! which was nothing out-of-expecation though. in chatting with me, she proposed the cliche question of "what do I want in this life of science?" which has been puzzling me all the time. do we enjoy the pure happiness of digging into science itself, or motivated by the expectation of a brilliant future? I know for fuling, 80% of the answer comes definitely to the former... for me, the night before, when I thought about the possibility of finding my precious lost sample, that was the point at which I might be converted to a devoted pure-science-lover.... but magic never happened:(

what I told Yuenan was, at least for this 5 years you could stay with Weiwei and have a fun graduate life. what a shame! remember what kind of ambition we had before, hotplay? haha, now I think the best thing is to stay with your dearest one... so I told Yuenan to forget about MIT, staying with hotplay is nothing comparable with staying with Weiwei...劝君莫惜金缕衣，劝君需惜少年时。。。

so could anyone tell me the difference between a purposeful and purposeless life? hmmm, we started to discuss the question from Dining House 9 's dirty table and till now haven't found a certain answer...

when talking to Fuling, I can always get the pure and simplified power.... we are of much difference you will see. she does things out of faith, not more of rationale:P me? I kinda keep an cynic eye on everything, at least part of me ... life is full of absurdity though it's also certainly full of fun.

背影

今天的Hiking 日程是La Jolla Canyon. 含义混淆的名字，好像是San Diego 的那个，可能是自命为珍宝的地方还不少吧。

因为经常走着走着就被拉在所有人后面，只能看到大家的背影，所以心血来潮，拍了一辑《背影》。记得上次看的日剧里面（《三十拉警报》？）男主角拍他心爱的女朋友（或者是，心爱的最好的朋友）跟别人结婚去机场路上挥手的背影，干干净净的祝福的心情，因为淡化了表情语言而带来的单纯感动，真让人动容。

所以就来拍背影吧，山谷的背影，有一点阴阴的不知所措；天空的背影，不管有多少云彩，都是淡淡的落寞（有很多张天空的照片，我也不知道为什么单把这张选出来当背影，可能是因为天跟海相接，就没有那么空旷的拒人千里了吧，背影总是要亲切一些，没有面具武装的样子）；那株黄色的小花是羞涩地背过身去，而那紫色的一枝是奋力地伸向天空，我也尽量想从她的角度来看看天的蓝，体会一点点她努力的心情吧。那张鹰的照片实在是没拍好，因为从来不擅长技术难度很高的摄影吧，但是他看起来有没有一点孤单英雄呢？

来看看人物。。。嗯，你们跟我一样也会为那张田罗夫妇“执子之手”的背影感动吧？他们那时候在相互给对方闻一种草根的香，爱情就是有人跟你分享那些生活中的细微之处，能够和你一样懂得。。。哈哈，太酸了。时间不够，略过其他，将最后两张好笑版的吧：

衡新在洗手间前等候，那时候大家已经看出了我拍照的不良意图，小梁怂恿我能不能拍出他的焦急神情，结果他可能有所察觉，摆了一个easy的pose.... 还想拍每个人走进厕所的背影（真是有点bt啊），结果搞得所有的人都倒退着进去，未果:( 更糟糕的是当我最后一个走出洗手间的时候，发现如同布什作完state of union走下台，被几台相机对准，还得我只好侧身逃窜。。。

最后是小亮离开大家走向他的车的背影。他明天回国，要单去跟人有约。这算是一张小小的告别吧。

http://www.its.caltech.edu/~mint/LoJollaCanyon022904/TheBacks/